I was long overdue for an adventure with @jessica_s_pappu, but going on @jarvisthegemini’s first hike made up for the fact that we were supposed to be in Colorado this weekend. 😍

I was long overdue for...

The real winner of quarantine... @jarvisthegemini. He’s been getting all the love and affection from us, I think he’s over it. 
It’s great having a dog right now. He keeps me company while @sammen89 has to work from home, instead of my extroverted self getting lonely. How are you guys doing?

The real winner of quarantine......

#TBT. Any other extroverts going stir-crazy?

#TBT. Any other extroverts going...

Back from when I was allowed to go outside. This was last month actually. I was hiking a lot as I prepare to (hopefully) make it up a 14er in CO with my outdoorsy other-Jessica @jessica_s_pappu. I was doing well for about 75% of this hike but that last stretch back took a lot out of me. 
Fun fact, for being from Texas I actually DON’T hate the cold. Cold + wind is a different story though.

Back from when I was...

I work in one of the industries heavily affected by the virus. For the first time in at least a year I had a job I loved going to, a company I believed in, and an industry that I’ve always wanted to work in. I loved my team and I felt like I belonged. Now, I’m furloughed, stuck at home until who knows when. I know it’s only temporary but it still sucks. This pause has forced me to do something I hate doing, to slow down. I hope you and yours are staying healthy and taking this time to focus on the important things: each other. Stay strong.

I work in one of...

Slowly working my way back to that “influencer” life. 🥴

Fun fact, I always HATED being called that. It often gets used synonymously with people that are shallow or are just self-centered, only caring about how things looked. I’ve been there. I’ve been where I planned on what to do based on “how it looks.” I’ve been depressed when my posts didn’t do as well as I thought they should. I spent money on outfits that I’d wear once, or plan outfits to wear in public based on what I’d be posting. I took it personal when I saw my follower count decrease. Eventually I’d had enough of my mental health tied to social media. I cleaned up 15000 “ghost” followers, people that followed me for giveaways or other reasons and didn’t ever actually care about my content, leaving people that I thought actually cared (and still lost about 1k). I’m definitely still learning the balance, and I often just lean towards not posting anything, instead of posting to have a post for the day or keep my content on your feeds. If you notice long gaps between my posts, that’s what’s going on. Quality//Quantity ☺️

Slowly working my way back...

Apparently between me, KP, and Dončić, only one of us will be showing up to the Mavs//Hawks game 😂 (swipe right) #MFFL

Apparently between me, KP, and...

Don’t let the shoes fool you, I’m still 5’1(ish)”

Don’t let the shoes fool...

The person who wrote this clearly hasn’t experienced the magic of a nap 😂

The person who wrote this...

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Where in the World has Jessica Been?

Hello again world!

It’s been quite some time since I’ve posted. I have a lot of explaining to do.

I’ve been taking a(n 8 month) break to refocus. Laying it all out there, at this time last year, I was looking for shallow validation: followers, likes, attention, a better closet… All the wrong reasons. It drove me to be competitive, but not in a healthy way. I made sure it wasn’t visible in my posts or my content, but it was the blog/Instagram driving me, instead of my passions driving the blog. It was exhausting, it was inauthentic, and it was shallow. Now that I have a handle on everything, I feel rebalanced and ready to try this again.

So as an update, in the past 8 months, I’ve:

  • Gone to Mexico on a cruise with 25 of my family members.
  • Decided to make the year going into my 30’s the beginning of my best life. For myself.
  • Earned a raise.
  • Spent some time with my family and showed them that Tennessee isn’t THAT bad (but it definitely isn’t Texas).

I can’t say that my future posts will be perfect, but I am not going to focus on my likes, comments, and followers. I’m back and better than before.

Be fearless,

Jessica

Live fearlessly,
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3 Comments
  • LL
    April 24, 2018

    Yayyyy! So glad you’re back! And i am right there with you. Focusing on likes and follows can make the journey of your passion and purpose so draining. I am just going to focus on doing what i enjoy and let the rest fall into place. Can’t wait to see more posts from you! And we definitely have to hang out soon!

  • Ashley
    April 24, 2018

    Love this Jess!! You’re amazing 🙂

  • neurosciency
    August 28, 2019

    hey! welcome back! i look forward to reading your posts.

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